As a daughter of Chinese immigrants, I quickly learned the importance of fitting into American mainstream society and its markers of success. I was told that in order to "be somebody," I needed to be a doctor or a lawyer. So I did what was expected of me. Disciplined and resolute, I put my head down as I graduated from law school, toiled for a decade at an Am Law 100 law firm, and spent another decade building a law firm and becoming its Managing Shareholder.
I am driven by external validation, and I do what society expects of me. I allow life to happen to me, putting the needs of my work and my family first. Until one day, I'm navigating mid-life, and one of my children asks how I knew what I wanted in life.
I let familial and societal expectations write my story, which I reinforced by my own thoughts and actions throughout my life.
No one asked me what I wanted before.
Not even me.